♥ Your Highness Mother Fucker

I Support TcMaine

2010-11-21T13:44:00.004+08:00

as you can see, my blog already died.
but I'm now here to blog for her, Chammaine!
okay cut the crap, hope she win this thing!

I support TCMAINE.

http://smashpop.net

it is just so hard to explain

2010-09-19T23:35:00.002+08:00

... and yes, not everyone is a 'mind-reader'.

I'm sick of people telling me I'm so emo, because that wasn't a fact.
yes, I did have a not so happy past in this year but things ended, and I'm good now.

everything that I posted, they interpret it as an emo post.
so means I have to put all kinds of emoticons behind every sentences that I wrote to prove I am not in this emo situation? Like this :D ?

wondering why everyone hates emo?
not all emo people are cry babies or suicidal.
besides, what is emo to mean to you might be totally different from others.

and then I realized, all these judgmental issue is very personal.
it is about what you've learned in your life, your thinking, how you want to think differently and be critical (specially in designing line), how you interpret things and etc.
well guess I have to thanks my Media Cultural lecturers for turning me into this 'creature'.
not a bad thing at least the things I see is different from what you've see.
that makes me so unpredictable and mysterious (again, it wasn't emo).

our purple cheese cake nails!

2010-09-12T01:01:00.003+08:00

I love it. She love it. We love it. ♥

it's sem break and finally I blog!

the day (911) started good and turned bad after that.
it was my dad's birthday and also one memorable day to me.
but dad fucked my day up later when I was discussing something with him! ptfff!

anyway, finally realized what is so called 'Photography'.
what I've did was so sucked and fucked. FML
I'm going to delete all my previous works from my hard disc!
let's kick start from zero!
is not easy to create an awesome portfolio, but one day I will!

... someday ♥

the hair is ♥

2010-08-14T01:19:00.005+08:00

Malene Knudsen for Vogue Russia August 2010 by Benny Horne

I'm dying for her hair!
die die also want this flows lor!

dear hair, please do a better job! :C
* touching my hairs *

4.19am

2010-08-07T04:18:00.006+08:00

dear diary, miss me?

a latest picture of me, Miss Emelyn.
still good, breathing but gained lots of weights.
life has been good, repeating the same routine as usual.
spent pretty much time in college lately due to finals.
and yes, still partying as usual as that's the way I distress.

things changed too fast and after few months, I still couldn't accept this reality.
how good if things were planed well and perfectly.
not to blame him, I never ever thought about this in my life.

I don't even dare to ask because I know that's IMPOSSIBLE.
is miracle exists? I'm think I'm gonna give up.
seriously need some new excitement, everything is so dull-ish!

goodbye dream land < / 3

spotlight on Melanie Hwa

2010-02-08T01:02:00.003+08:00

The Dark Romance

Model : Melanie Hwa
Make Up Artist : Ferlyn Lim
Photographer : Emelyn Tan
Photo Editer : Emelyn Tan

Special Thanks to : Elton Teo

some of my favorite shoots ♥

click here for more pictures

spend my whole day taking pictures and editing pictures,
but I don't feel tired at all.
maybe because this is what I love to do?

well, projects still awaiting me.
can't believe I went shooting when there's 2 more projects waiting me to finish it before Wednesday.
am feeling a little bit freak out now!

emo bitch.

2010-02-07T01:06:00.007+08:00

don't know since when I started to take self-portrait whenever I'm feeling down.

it had already became a habit of mine, and I'm enjoying it.

♥

obviously, I'm not feeling happy now.

don't know whats wrong with me today, I'm out of tune.

fucked up things happened at night and not only one.

thanks for those shits, I'm not in the mood for projects anymore.
this coming Wednesday have to summit final essay draft, cd cover and also audio remix.
super worry about my audio lah T____T

realized that what I did is "I need to" but not "I want to"
lost the passion towards studies,
lost the passion towards designing field.
and nobody can really shares your feeling.
felt like a useless and pathetic bitch, haha.

guess is time to take a warm bath and off to bed.
stupid weather made my skin super dry and rough!
people who know me well knew I care for my skin, a lots!
and this is also the reason why I'm getting emo.

I don't really blog.
don't like to talk much but um...
weird, bye!

Mr.Holiday, where are you?

2010-02-02T23:03:00.003+08:00

my current wallpaper, and I love it so much!

Chinese New Year is just around the corner.
Valentine is just around the corner.
final is just around the corner.
and I am so not a happy girl.

awaiting Sunday.
I'm gonna do something to make myself happier.
excited, nervous, wanna get things done beautifully!
wish me luck!

wonderful weekend ever

2010-01-31T22:09:00.007+08:00

had a outing with my babes since 3 of us didn't hang out for some time already.

me, cam-whoring in the car as usual.
I love my hair and make up,clean, neat and simple.
babe yee
me and babe wen

had a blast night @ The Opera
glad all my friends can mix well together!
and we rock the club ♥

babe Wen ♥

babe Yee ♥

froggie Min Ton

my favorite bitch Loke

meet Junee there too

Justin Khoo

Xing Hao
bumped into lembu WC

Min Ton, Esther and me
Esther's friend
SK and Kenny

♥

we took so lots of pictures yesterday.
party so hard, had so much fun!

I love you people ♥

okay, parties end.
back to reality and start doing projects now since I did not did any of them this weekend!

kill me, I'm emo girl again.

this is missemelyn's blog, last but not least I have to say "BAD SKIN CONDITION"
fucking pimples growing again!
okay, shurong stop complaining this to me anymore.
it had already became a quote of mine :D

to take advantages.

2010-01-30T00:33:00.006+08:00

... and this is the meaning of Friends ?

hate your hypocrite,
sick of your dramas,
I'm out of this shit.

daa daa dee dum dum

2010-01-24T12:59:00.008+08:00

college sucks, am feeling stressed every single day.
there's still tons of stuff have to be done!
deadline is coming, and they even move forward the audio submition date to one week earlier.
and is was told yesterday, not even in the brief!
cruel, stupid and whatever you call.

I'm in low spirit, in fact, all of us.
everyone had a very terrible skin now.
pimples doing their thingy, the popping!

received a call from my bitch last thursday night.
"yo bitch, want to go party tonight?"
"umm, don't want ler. tiring and too many stuff haven't done."

and few minutes later

"eh, where you guys going later? I'm on."

......

so we went Maison that night.

babe wen ♥

my seniors

tequila girl wannabe, lol

faceless SK, he so quite.

♥

Bitch Loke Wan

bumped into Chloe

he act drunk / slap

he act cute / slap

the bitch!

that night was awesome!
I heart my babe wen, my bitch loke and cutie fanny ♥

ps / realized not only me myself thinking to quit TOA, there's quite a numbers of them too.

I'm so ...

2010-01-21T02:37:00.003+08:00

credit to Mattson Creative

spotlight on JooYee

2010-01-15T13:48:00.004+08:00

had a shooting session early morning with JooYee.
this is one of the hardest shoot I've faced.
my model cant really pose, so yea.
have to think other ways to get those shoots.

sort of challenging to me.
yet, there's lots more challenges awaiting me!
and at least, I see something different with what I used to do.

♥

click here for more pictures

have to move my ass to the college now.
gonna hit to the recording studio and do some recording!
am feeling tired, pimples popping out again!
blame the insomnia, I cant sleep every night and keep on thinking those shits which wasn't really relevant!

oh ya, Chinese New Year coming soon!
and I don't feel excited at all, not this year.
truly madly suck.

the world is huge

2010-01-12T16:34:00.006+08:00

... and I'm so infinitesimal.

I shall not dream myself into a character,
I must hammer and forge myself into one.

time to do some researches for the final projects.
basically all the concepts is already there,
just that have to find more relevant sources and references.

*
gonna turn into a bee next week onwards.

2010, are you ready?

2010-01-09T22:25:00.007+08:00

I'm back in Sunway, the hell!

didn't really did anything during my 2 weeks study break,
am feeling panic now because projects coming soon!

gonna blog about the '10 New Year Eve party @ One Club

let the pictures do the talking alright.

we reached there super early,
stepped into the club at 9.30pm and start drinking.
cam-whore a little with Lynn

the love bird ♥

see, so damn empty and boring.

bumped into babe Susan ♥

Vivian ♥

things changed. the happening time begun!

the chao nangkas.

meeting new friends. Lynn and Kee Hong.
pet pet Chin looking sexy!
Vivian went tipsy!
Kaiho who practices Agapism.

the king of nangka Chong Winson.

I'm started to felt nervous, I'm turning 20 this year.

fucking 20 and I still did nothing in my life.
am feeling so old, so useless.
have to agree with what daddy told me,
I know he loves me and that's why he scolded me that day.

2010, I wanna be a good girl.
2010, I wanna be a better person.
2010, I wanna start working on my goals.
2020, I have to start doing what I've promised.

FYI, I'm fucking serious okay :D

2010 brand new year.

2010-01-01T10:35:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year to all my ♥ ones!

*

today is the first day of 2010,
it also one of the bad day of mine.

I blog just to remind me about today, the day!
just because of a slip-up, I hate myself so damn much now!
and I've never been that drunk, FML.

ps / forget to bring my card reader back with me so the pictures will only be upload when I'm back in Sunway.

pps / my favorite new heels was spoiled! heartache.

ppps / I've grew pimples! seriously have to tune back my sleeping time.

pppps / I don't know what I'm typing about. so, bye bye.

breakthrough needed.

2009-12-30T22:41:00.005+08:00

bored with my style, colors, mood or whatever shit you call!
trying to do something different but it ends up not-so-different.
please, inspire me, I need new things!

my days turned up side down.
dad has been complaining,
he said he don't really see me at home.
when he is going out to work, I'm sleeping.
when he back from work, I'm out.
aiyor, I can't expose to sunlight mar!

2010 is coming!
are you ready? because I'M NOT!
anyway, party tomorrow :D

spotlight on Hilary GioGio

2009-12-25T14:45:00.003+08:00

had a photo shooting session with Elton and GioGio yesterday.
do give me feed backs so that I can keep improving.

click here for more pictures

Christmas Eve sucks, Sanctuary was hell packed!
I lost my mood to party and I was too tired.
anyway, had a great sleepover with my girls thou ♥

serious bad skin condition now.
thank God I'm leaving back to Kedah soon, later!
have to rest as much as I can for this study break.

lastly, I would like to end up this post by wishing everybody
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

I'm being random.

2009-12-20T11:59:00.004+08:00

boy you know I-I-I

boy you know I-I-I
I've been feeling
wake up in the late night dreaming about your loving

♥

somehow I just can't control myself, but now I have to.
because I'm officially broke now :(
sigh, women. sales. shopping. kills.

lastly, I still want to say this.
IM HAVING BAD SKIN CONDITION AHHH!
okay, back to projects now and no more buying!

just a short post.

2009-12-18T02:00:00.005+08:00

life have been bustling with school works.
currently at Vv's house working on our projects.
already spended many sleepless night here.
all the best to the BMM's!

for those who helped me whenever I need help,
who fetched me here and there,
who concerned about my health,
who talked to me and chilled me!
BIG BIG THANK YOU TO YOU GUYS!

okay, running out of time.
have to make this quick and short for now!
will blog after I settle my projects, all of them.

pictures taken when I was depressing.
surprisingly it makes me feel better right after ♥

I want to take more pictures, can I?

New Moon ♥

2009-11-26T20:45:00.005+08:00

cam-whore during Internet Culture class
bah, college life sucks and tiring!
am missing my holidays so much now.
guess have to wait till the 2010, life never been that gloomy.

having tons of projects on hand as usual.
don't really want to list it down anymore.
thinking of quitting college shit again. haha
although I'm not gonna do that so I just can dream about it.
*bitch slap own-self*

I want to go photo shooting!
I wish to sleep like a freako!
I have to start on dieting!
I NEED CASH! great.

going to watch New Moon later at 11pm ♥
it was like finally, waited for so long!

joke of the day ;
Winson actually called me Lady Nangka,
and he assume that he is Winbull.
*HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA*

rah-rah-ah-ah-ah
mum-mum-mum-mum-mah
nangka-oo-la-la
want your bad romance

spotlight on Jacklyn Pui

2009-11-22T14:41:00.007+08:00

woke up super early in the morning like 7.30am and went photo shoot with Elton and Jacklyn.
the entire day was fun, excited yet tiring!
we took very long time to decide the destination, lol.
lastly, Heritage Hotel was the choice and another random village that fulls of mosquitoes!
yes, i get mosquitoes bites and it's on my face! shit.

here is some shoots that me likey.

♥
click here for more pictures

behind the scene when all of us went crazy!

thanks for the supports, appreciated muchie muchie!
it does mean a lots for me ♥
will keep it up and improve my skills!
still kinda lousy now many noise and blur shoots :S

for you information, Hong Yen is a faker.
and I only have a Facebook account under the name Emelyn Tan!
sorry for causing troubles and misunderstood friends.

worry stressy baby dammy

2009-11-20T20:09:00.003+08:00

watched another 2 films lately.
Phobia 2 wasn't that bad as what I thought.
at least the 5th story was like so damn funny!
and the ghosts wasn't scary and kinda lame.

Christmas is just around the corner ♥
it used to be one of my favorite festival yet I don't like to celebrate in Malaysia.
aww, I wanna go Manhattan badly!

anyway A Christmas Carol was a double thumbs up animation!
I wonder how they manage to did that!
super impressed by the animation, awesome.
watch it. and if you haven't, go to get yourself ticket like now!

am trying to download 3ds max software.
haih, is time to start the 3d modeling.
tick-tock-tick-tock time just doesn't wait, how cruel.
and my line is even cruel-er, it's even slower than a snail now.

Palimpsest. I was surprised that she actually like 3 of my ideas!
so I have to develop more on the story lines and so on.
drop dead die like 78972361298 times!

yeah, shooting tomorrow.
practice makes perfect, have to shoot more to get better skills :)
okay, maybe is time to stuck my ass with the toilet bowl and start reading or maybe brainstorm.
good idea?

well, as you can see...

2009-11-16T21:37:00.004+08:00

watching movies is always my hobby.

I've watched movies before, during and also after my holidays.
don't really have chances to share all of them.
lately, I've watched 2 movies and I'm gonna share it in this post.

watched The Time Traveler's Wife which recommended by JooYee last Saturday.
it was directed by Robert Schwentke and the stories was originally based on Audrey Niffenegger's novel.
love the opening of the movie was great.
the way they tackles the audiences and also playing with differences of space.
although it was complicated but nicely done.

finally watched 2012, I would assume that this is the hottest movie in the year!
it was directed by this talented guy Roland Emmerich.
he was the directer, one of the producer and he written the stories as well.
I was amazed, how great this movie was.
the 3d and animation was like omgbbq!
although certain part was kinda fake but it's already very power liao I would say.
trust me, 3d wasn't that easy and I'm having problems for only drawing a wine bottle!

not much to said, bet most of us had watched this great film ♥
and now I'm awaiting for another must watch, New Moon
*very big smile*
it's coming and I've been waiting for so long!

streamyx is not working for few days already.
currently at the Mich's cause I cant do researches at home.
skin is sensitive again and I fucked my life again.

my room was untidy and dirty.
I'm gonna do some house chorus later if I'm not being lazy, if.

okay, I'm going busy! :(
gonna do researches and think ideas for my projects!

hello loves

2009-11-09T16:14:00.005+08:00

yes, Miss Emelyn was back in Sunway.
cough, fever, flu everything came to me and i have to attend classes everyday (except weekend).
attended the very 1st class today, boring one.
the new lecturers seems solemnity and not-so-friendly.
and now i miss Eddie, at least he is fun.

learned 3ds max today.
oh my goodness interface, what a total perspective feeling!
im so gonna die this semester, most of the subject im taking not the one i like.
still, i have to keep going on.

going to take a warm bath, rest for a while and start my assignment
no so fun lor :(

Halloween Party ♥

2009-11-02T21:35:00.013+08:00

I'm back from KL again.
what a tiring journey, but it was fun thou!
thanks uncle Chong for driving us there, thanks uncle Chin chilling me throughout the journey.
I'm sick and it get worst after I back from the trip.

don't really feel like updating my blog anymore.
yet, I knew someone is waiting for my update :D
haha, so here you go baby!

we celebrated Halloween at Poppy.
it was my very first time partying with 30 plus people!
anyway, guess all of us have had a great night, right?

some of the pictures of Halloween night @ Poppy

mosang X cempedak

my favorite picture of us ♥the brand new couple ♥

the boyfriend likey this picture.

Chong Winson so power!

the ladies in Black
(Darius and June Yee kacau behind us, LOL)

some of the boys learned swimming lesson that night.
but too bad, I only captured uncle Chong and uncle Chin's.

picture of the day ;
Darius Chin the sunshine boy

it was really a memorable journey :)
holidays gonna end, and I have to back to Sunway real soon.
guess is time to get ready and prepare for the coming hectic stressful shits lifestyle.
I'm so gonna miss all my friends who spend their time with me during this holiday!
♥ ♥ ♥

feeling a little bit emo.
there's too many stuff have to be done within these few days before I back to Sunway.
ooh and not to forget, my holiday task! :S
now I'm worrying about that.

danger with the lips ♥

2009-10-24T20:09:00.002+08:00

one of a very inspiring picture.

darned fucking shit day!

2009-10-23T17:17:00.005+08:00

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for all those brainless assholes out there!
F U C K Y O U

the power of facebook.

2009-10-20T17:08:00.003+08:00

and i just realized.

on and off

2009-10-18T16:02:00.007+08:00

am currently suffering from eye irritation.

bloody hell don't understand why it happened until i realized i didn't clean up my hand before wearing and taking out my contact lenses.
should learn from this lesson, no next time!
*sigh*

so last Friday was Winson Chong's big day.
HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY NANGKA!

some pictures of the night @ Mois

my ladies ♥

Winson Chong the birthday boy!

he look so gay in this picture!

Uncle Chong and Uncle Chin
I'm getting lazy and lazier!
how useless and how pathetic it was.
yet I'm enjoying every moment I have now!

A goal without a plan is just a dream.
so stop dreaming, start working on it!

officially turning into a big fat panda!

2009-10-12T17:21:00.008+08:00

am sleeping in the am everyday, a night owl i am.
loving the night but not the day and i really wish that the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more.

anyway, im enjoying my holiday.
meeting up friends, partying around, chit-chatting like nobody business till the am!
and i just realized im gonna back to the hell 3 more weeks later.
so many things to be done, yet so little time for me!
perhaps, im just getting lazy and lazier.

alright, guess im gonna spend my time wisely!
sleep more for the coming weeks is what im gonna do, i think.
aiyor, i don't even know how to blog anymore!
what-the-hell am i doing *laughs*

ps / today is Joo Yee's 19th birthday!
the picture is taken on your 18th birthday celebration.
Happy Birthday J ♥

pps / for your information, i only using 1 facebook account.
my name is Emelyn Tan but not whatever shit Hong Yen!

the secret.

2009-10-05T14:04:00.004+08:00

I'm spending my times finding back those sweet memories.

And I came to realized that, things get tainted.
In fact, I changed, or maybe we changed.
Hence, I have to move forward.

I shouldn't be regretful for it anymore.
Life's a bitch, and this is life.

ps / I'm gonna be fine, soon?

Miranda Kerr

2009-10-03T15:16:00.005+08:00

she's one of my favorite Victoria's Secret Angels.
this set of photographs is an awesome shits!
she speak body languages, thumbs up and me likey ♥

nom nom nom nom!

2009-10-01T22:56:00.011+08:00

hello people, how's life?
time flies like what-the-fuck, it's already Oct.
1 more month to enjoy my sweet times before i back to hell.

was having fun with my buddies lately :)
suppose to cook spaghetti yesterday, but it turns out to be something new.

my all time favourite crabsticks!

due to putting too much of crab sticks.
our sauce turned out to be so not spaghetti sauce!
they hate it, but i love it!
HAHAHAHAHAHA

as promised, i be model for Ruru's hair exam.
so many flowers and there's a big bird nest on my head.
this is so not me, and i don't like to tie my hair.
anyway, wishing her all the best for the examination.
they came to 'kidnap' me again.
thank god they are not that heartless.
i told them i want to eat bak kut teh and yes!

JooYee, i know you always want to eat this.
anyway, i helped you finished it just now.
come SP and I'll bring you there :)
don't cry, i know im just so sweet ;)

oh ya, it's all about food.
im gonna gain like 10kg in this holiday.
cool right? respect me!

i hope i can sleep earlier tonight although it seems impossible.
argh, i do looks like a freaking zombie now!
fucking serious eye bags plus dark eyes circles!

what a life.

it was a damn!

2009-09-28T19:44:00.004+08:00

today was a damn day.
like so wtf damn damn damn!
I'm pissed with everything right now.

had a photo shooting session with Ruru and Joanne yesterday.
ahhh, I don't really satisfy with the outcome.
ISO too high, composition can be better, and others.
the noob photographer using auto all way long, believe it!

some of my favorite shoots ♥

click here for more pictures.

a goal without a plan is just a wish.
there's lots of things need to be improve, and i will.
am waiting for the photography workshop, kinda excited!
* i need white rats, who wanna be mine :P *

still pissing with tons of stuff.
aiyor, what to do leh?
THIS IS LIFE BAYBEHHH ~

somewhere over the rainbow.

2009-09-25T01:02:00.004+08:00

I'm feeling so damn useless...
I need to shop like nobody business!!!
I need financial support and where the heck is my back ups???
x please turn up and get me what i need baby x

listening to the Tik Tok does makes me feels better ♥

This is an untitle post.

2009-09-23T00:33:00.009+08:00

part of the foods, was busy eating.

went to visit my relatives yesterday at Butterworth.
just staying there a night and i ate like wtfbbq tons of foods.
i told my cousin sis that i miss lok lok, so she bring me here!
they said the lok lok here damn famous wor, look at the crowd!

bought ikan bakar and some sea foods for supper.
was busy with the foods, no pictures taken.
and how sad, i can't suck balitong like forever!
blah, i will not eat balitong anymore.

spend my night with the beloved cousin sis and bro.
watching some haunted movie till 5am in the morning.
all of us cant wake up for breakfast.
end up, mum dabao dimsum for us.

back home after that, sleep until the late evening.
went Heidi's house preparing for the barbecue.
no doubt i ate tons of food again. haih
tomorrow another outing with them.

group picture after so long ♥
seriously, my diet plan totally FAILED.
aiyor, 5 more kg to go and i hate myself so much!

my brain is empty now. bai.

I love hotties!

2009-09-20T16:00:00.005+08:00

Taylor Momsen
can you believe that she's just 16 years old?
freaking love her blond,smokey eyes and her styles!

Sasha Pivovarova
simply love her outstanding physiognomy!

Lindsay Lohan
the good girl gone bad, me love!

Meester Leighton
Queen Bee with hairband and awesome curls!

Fergie
she can sing, she can dance, she can pose.
and she got everything!

LadyGaga
another talented fashion icon with attitude.
Lena Fujii
love her expression with the sexy moles!

don't you think they are awesome?
im gonna work like 982537163 times harder!
okay, it makes me thinks that im so not a multimedia person.

promised to forget about what i want.
working harder for the future is what i need.

finger crossed ♥

do you like it ?

2009-09-19T16:12:00.008+08:00

finally done with the new blogskin!

which is also the task 1 to overcome my laziness.
first time edit html coding layout in my blog, i hate coding.
thanks J. she did helped me in this too :)

i saw that thinggy again.
well i don't really 'see' them but i can always 'feel' them.
guess she was trying to tell me something.
sounded creepy huh , i think im not going to stay up late tonight.

blah, i ditched Heidi and YiVoon for the second time.
please don't kill me, im just being lazy. hahaha
anyway, you guys better don't ditch me later night!

errr, better stop here lah.
my blog getting more and more boring like shit.
anyone wanna help me wash and polish my car?
my poor little car damn dirty, shit the rain!

i hate this feeling.

2009-09-17T21:50:00.005+08:00

stuck in whatever chapter ; self-slapped

I don't really used to my semester break.
somehow I felt that is kinda weird of me being so free.
I really want to do something, yet I'm just too lazy.
I don't really love holiday, I know I sounded crazy.

really wish I can overcome those laziness!
else, I would go mad. I think.

wish that I'm a Jumper
wish that I'm right there tonight
wish that I can meet you right now
wish that you miss me, just like how I miss you

Happy Birthday my loves!

2009-09-16T00:49:00.006+08:00

Vivian Yap

Stephanie Poh

Happy Birthday to both 0916 babes ♥
*photos taken from their facebook*

remember last year 0916 birthday party at Maison?
it's been a long time all of us didn't hang out either partying together.
i missed the time when we spend our times together.
we may be busy with different things, but do always remember
friendship forever ; i love you girls

♥

decided.

2009-09-12T18:01:00.005+08:00

im gonna stick back with the multimedia.
not gonna change to advertising either fashion anymore.

ps / gaining weight right after back home, fuck!

im very lazy.

2009-09-11T03:15:00.004+08:00

i don't feels like blogging anymore and im still thinking of why.
but at least im here to wish my dad Happy Birthday!
thank you for spoiled your daughter and many la yor ♥

im back in Kedah like finally.
im not going to look for job because im having bad skin condition like bbq.
i need to spend more on facials, masks, bird nests, bird shits or whatsoevernot.
i must remember that i can't gain weight this holiday else er, i don't know T__T
i've bought some books and i wish i can finish it within 2 month while not 2 years.
i must complete the holiday tasks given by wk although i don't feels like doing it.

anyway, friends please do and don't miss me.

i can't really think of anything right now because it is already 3.37am.
okay. im still very lazy. bye.

bad lucks!

2009-09-08T00:21:00.004+08:00

currently suffering from food poisoning and fever.
okay i think is time to stop outing and take a good rest.
will update when i feels better :)

ps / hope can faster fix my laptop, troublesome like wtfbbq!

this is what happened recently.

2009-09-05T19:08:00.006+08:00

so right after the last presentation on Wednesday,
me, Michelle, Shurong, Lilian and Fion went for the movie UP.
people said this is the best animation movie ever, but i don't think so.
nice character design, nice 3d look, everything's nice
but storyline is boring, so i fall a sleep in the cinema.

Thursday noon went Amp Square with the MM students.
after that when i was on my way going home i bumped into Shurong.
so i follow her to Neway to meet the AD students.
sing K twice a day, im so going to puke like bbq.

Thursday night party with my long time no see babes.
went Maison, Shawn Lee was there that night ♥
i love to see him beat-boxing, just so cute :)

i still haven't received all the pictures.
lazy upload already lar, go facebook if you want more.

today would be the last day i meet Michelle.
T___________T
would definitely miss S and M so much.
please continue to chill me when I'm sad, emo or down.

the file and apple scrub was free gift thou.
seriously need to try this!
will see the effect after 28 days.
please save my dark eye circles and eye bags.

gonna hang out with my girls tomorrow ♥

i don't even have any good rest yet.
aiyor, im seriously very tired now.
finished all the craps and bullshits, I'm off to my cozy bed right now!

it's official.

2009-09-04T21:09:00.005+08:00

by the way, there's nothing to do with this post =P

me and babes planed Sunday night watch Final Destination.
Brian said Sunday night watch Final Destination.
Michelle said now watch Final Destination.
SHIT, I CANT DECIDE THEREFORE I CHOOSE TO FOLLOW THE SEQUENCE!

ooh, did i mentioned I'm officially having my semester break now?
YES I AM! will update my blog real soon.

i wish i can die tomorrow.

2009-08-30T01:25:00.006+08:00

i never feels like this before, my brain fried like bbq.
i wish i died when i bath, when i eat, when i do projects, i wish i die every second!

well, i don't even know who am i now!
i fight for my dream and because of this i even quarrel with daddy.
im the dumb ass who prefer TOA and die die not going to LKW.
i always want to prove him wrong, i want to let him know i know what im doing.
but not this time, im so damn wrong.

im asking myself, am i still enjoying design?
im asking myself, is this what i want for my future?
im asking myself, is what im doing now worth?
i cant get any answer because im fucking lost!

i wish i can tell them that we are stressing, work overload while not complaining for fun!
i wish i can stop whatever im doing now, come on, just fail me you asshole!
i wish i can tell Micheal that your EQ so damn low and i hate you like bbq!
i wish i can tell Eddie that i really hate animation and i cant do that!
i wish i can just skip college everyday and enjoying my life like how i used to!

we are no longer kiddo, not yet adult but is already pre-adult lar!
we din't voice out doesn't mean we don't have feelings.
we voice out doesn't mean we are childish, always complaining.
we just want to tell you how we feels, we just want to work everything out.
do not tell me how stress is the industry, we are here to learn because we are student.
do not tell me how we going to survive in the future even we cant handle this.
we are still learning, this is the process.
everything needs time, don't tell me you never heard this.

IM FUCKING PISSED NOW.
not because of college, is because of my weakness!
this is my fault because i dare not stand out and say out my feelings!
i choose to cry, cry and cry like bbq in the night!

friends, stop comforting me.
you know nothing and you wont understand my situation.
friends, stop judging me.
i swear i dint partying around and neglect my projects.
because you all know nothing, things are different.

i don't believe what im doing anymore, i lost the passion.
im a multimedia student who doesn't want to be multimedia designer.
i miss home, i just want to go home.

im just fucking depressed, ignore me, ignore this post.
im tired, i really dont know what im doing now.
slept for 2 - 3 hours per day? die soon.
planning to invit people to my funeral liao.

ps / i don't want to see any of us crying anymore. just few more days to go.
all the best to all AD and MM students!

I'm still alive.

2009-08-24T17:58:00.009+08:00

thank God, im still alive.

done my flash presentation this morning.
was kind of disappointing with the outcome.

the good news is there's a chance for us to re summit,
but i don't think i will make any major changes.
because there's 3 more finals waiting for me leh.
and the bad news is, i get first holiday task like wtfbbq.

why some people just thought that our time management is bad?
to be frank, i did gave my best for it.
im not sure about others but i can fucking swear that i spend my times dates and flirts with the assignments.
i took every words, but not for this :)

im broke and im craving for this *scream*

The Proposal ♥

2009-08-21T01:58:00.005+08:00

yesterday went for mid night movie with Shurong and Mich.
i love this movie, would like to it watch for the second time.
Sandra Bullock and Ryan Reynolds both looking hot ♥
and thumbs up for The Gabe Dixon Band!

currently working on projects at Lilian's house together the AD's kaki.
group working definitely better than doing assignments alone at home
at least we can have people to talk and would not be that sleepy.

we can because we think we can.
just few more weeks to go and the holiday is waiting for us :D
all the best for both MM and AD's students.

i can because i think i can.
5 more kg to go, self control needed.

and yeah, you looks cuter that way :)
okay, back to work now!

release stress cannot meh?

2009-08-19T20:11:00.007+08:00

yesterday i went to Barbecue Plaza with Loke Yea.

it's fattening but still, my all time favorite ♥
i told myself that i will start my diets the next day, so no worries.

Soon Jin, Liang Yi, Jia Wei, Sam is already freaking damn funny,
yet i've found another one now, Loke Yea!
he would be the bitchiest, funniest and talkiest guy i've ever meet.
im glad that im having friends like this, they always brings me laughter.

this morning, i had gastric again.
i took my medicine without taking my breakfast.
so i end up puking and i felt so fucking unwell.

no body believe im having gastric, swt.
luckily, J went down to get me some snacks.
i felt much better after i took the kitkat and stuffs, thanks.
and yeah, i broke my diet rules therefore i skipped lunch.

having animation class for today.
fun, but it involved lots of works like bbq.
so this is what me and J did in the class while people still busy doing their animation.

yes i know the we was like so damn pretty.
because you can't really see our face, and that's why!
HAH HAH HAH

i used to thought animation wouldn't be that hard.
but not until Eddie told me "im worried for you"
okay fine, i should start worry liao now.
im worried about my animation now because i finally thinks that it is complicated!

ps / my mood swings because im having skin-ache :(

what the fuck is modernism?

2009-08-16T23:04:00.007+08:00

im currently working on an essay topic related to Modernism and Malaysia.
anyone and everyone could have their own definition towards modern.
there's no right or wrong, just they way you proved yourself.

i promised myself not to blog until i done this bloody essay.
i just can't control myself, i went kaput because of this shit.
my pimples popping out like nobody business now!
FUCK, HOW GREAT IS IT HUH?!

im stress when im writing something about this kinda deep deep thinggy.
although i got tons of points to prove Malaysia is not a modern country.
this is so cliché, they just spend money to get what they want.
hello sayang, ini bukan modern sangat lah kay.

im feeling so fucked up now.
done more than 1500 words but still haven't really start my points.
i can die for sure, i don't know how to write it out man.
if Malaysia are so modern, please create something that can read my mind.
perhaps it can print also out my thoughs and analysis it lar.

aiyor, pimples are just fucking troubling.
modern people, please do something okay?

im back to the essay now.
do read Yuki's blog because she wrote something real funny.
this is not a must, but if you are free enough then why not?

i need a wake up call.

2009-08-14T22:10:00.004+08:00

simply ♥ this picture of mine

i should fucking start my essay tomorrow.
gonna sleep earlier tonight, going library to kick of some books!
it is always easy when you know what you going to write,
but i don't even fully understand my topic.
wish i could at least finish 1000-1300 words by Tuesday.
T_____T

1 down, 4 more to go.

pimples growing again, cry out loud.

Wow.

2009-08-11T23:39:00.003+08:00

flash mobile device - 40%
superheroes poster - 95%
animation - 0%
audio - 0%
essay - 0%

fast fast fast, i want to finish all these shits as fast as possible!
im going to have my hibernation for a month.
i just can't wait for it, YEAH!

Mike is being unusual, like so unusual.
he replied my email and said, overall is good, good improvement.
i rub my eyes twice when i saw the email.
anyway, but there's also some minor things need to change.
im happy too, YEAH!

something's under my foot!
this is so pain and i cant get that shit out.
what can i do now, i can't even walk properly.
blah, very worry about it now :S

saturday night with lots of ♥
cameraman tak tau tangkap gambar, haha.

T_________T
i cant make it to the club again this week.
babes, im sorry, im so so sorry
wait me for 1 more month, promise!

okay, is time to turn on my Cold Hard Bitch and continue my sketches.

Today's lesson was fun.

2009-08-05T19:15:00.010+08:00

we learned how to animate a cartoon character by using the traditional way.
i know it sounded very boring with the traditional word but wait a minute,
I HAD FUN! love this lesson more than others.

urm, still thinking did i make the right decision for majoring in multimedia.
i love fashion, graphic, and illustration too although my drawing is kinda cacat.
anyway, there's no turning back for now so i need to love you fucking flash.
i love you , i love you , i love you , love me too kay?

i don't know which project should i start with, there's so many of them.
im so not energetic recently, because im freaking tired!
blah, i got so much to complain :(
it makes me feel tired, so i better shut my mouth.

SILA AMBIL PERHATIAN ;
if you are wearing spectacles and dark red color tee,
if you are at The One Academy's library today, 6.16pm,
if you are finding books right beside the counter of the library,
and if you know that i'm actually talking about you,
please contact me as fast as possible, because you are cute.

Eddie, if you are reading this now.
you are stupid, haha!

OHMAIGOD, just read through Mich's blog and i found this

Its not something that I'm ashamed of,
just isn't something that i go around telling everyone.
Yes. I have both male and female genitalia,
but i consider myself a female.
Its just a little bit of a penis and really doesn't interfere much with my life. The reason I haven't talked about it is that its not a big deal to me.
Like come on. its not like we all go around talking about our vags.
I think this is a great opportunity to make other multiple gendered people feel more comfortable with their bodies.
I'm sexy, I'm hot.
I have both a poon and a peener.
Big fucking deal.
- Lady Gaga

she rocks, just fucking ♥ her.

way too tough!

2009-08-03T19:25:00.007+08:00

this is my Typography poster design.
im satisfied with the outcome ♥
can you understand the meaning of this poster?

im back from my hometown yesterday.
so many things to be update, yet so little time i have
will update once i got the time, might be 3 weeks later lor.

it's already week 11, i was like OMFG WHY SO FAST?!
another 3 weeks i will be having my semester break!
i seriously need to reformat my laptop, ARGH HATE IT!

3 more weeks, 5 more bloody projects to go!
TELL ME HOW IM GOING TO SURVIVE?!
well, suppose to be only 4
but there's some kaypo giving so many extra things to do.
you know who you are!
siapa makan cili, siapa rasa pedas.

having real hot tempered, i need my cigarettes now.
luckily Zee Avi's lovely voices could calm me down :)
till then, bai for now people.

*

T_____T
im back again, i got no mood to continue my essay.
im sick again, my skin turns bad again.

my nervous system just went kapuf.
okay la, just releasing my stressfulness emotion here.
back to the modernism and canggih manggih topic which i know nothing at all.
i heart my play lists, it's awesome shit!

*fingers crossed*

♥

2009-07-31T00:27:00.004+08:00

so many things happened today, good and bad.
pretty hard for me to describe my feelings now.
fidgety, grieve, depress, lonely, busy and etc ?

day to day, im asking myself the same question.
day to day, im felling like a bird who lost my direction.
day to day, im telling myself that i will overcome all these.
but who knows, when will it be?

anyway, the different is i started to think more positive than before.
i don't want to disappoint myself and also people i hearts.
angel and devil, they are easy to distinguish.
i got so much so much to say right now.
i must stop myself now because i still haven't take my bath.
HAH HAH HAH

i ♥ you because you are reading this!
*smiles*

what if ...

2009-07-30T00:47:00.007+08:00

missing my long fringe.

TOA just cant arrange a better timetable?
see, i missed out lotsa fun :'(

i hardly can have lunch or dinner with them.
therefore i told Mich that im going to commit suicide.

she promised to give me tons of roses in gold and silver.
she promised to play r&b music during my funeral.
she promised to get me grasses from Italy.
BTW, please give me a coffin which fulls of blings!

anyway, i think that my fatty D is dying soon.
WTF noises was that, i just couldn't understand!
not at this moment please, im bustled with the assignments!
William, you will help me reformat de hor? =D
please say yes, yes, please say yes!

why not my daddy is actually a tycoon?
i can get myself a new VAIO.
i can get myself Comme Des Garcons converse.
i can skip college and start shaking my leg in my mansion.
more, more and more...

*random thoughts came to me again, self slap*

i don't like 2009.

2009-07-26T12:14:00.010+08:00

2009 seems like a fucked up year.
our award winning film director Yasmin Ahmad has died.
this was like a big news to our nation, she is so talented.

this is a great loss for Malaysian.
may you Rest In Peace, Yasmin Ahmad.

i just know that one of my lecturer Mark Teh actually sang Here In My Home!
OMGBBQ, now only i know he is well known in the industry.

okay, i seriously can go die liao!
as a multimedia student, I SUCK!
so many bloody things to do and i haven't started!

exchange.

2009-07-24T19:09:00.003+08:00

i swear to God that i will stop partying until end of this semester.
i swear to God that i will give my best shoots for all my projects.
i swear to God that i know and clear about what im doing now.

but please, don't take away my skin from me.
im suffering from my dry skin which full of acne.
this is all because of i stay up super late for projects!
pray hard , fingers crossed :'(

*

"It's not how good you are, It's how good you want to be."

6 more projects to go till the semester break.
we can make it for sure!

im sacrificing for my future,
this is not a monkey business.

the untitle.

2009-07-21T01:01:00.006+08:00

well, i guess I've almost done the re-do thinggy.
the before and after doesn't have much different.
this is so sweat, i don't know how Mike going to comment on mine.

anyway, if you look clearly there's some differences.
so i consider it as an improvement lor!
left 2 more head and some touch up to be done.
can't wait to pass up this bloody project!

my pimples getting more and more now, i don't know why.
im so panic, im so worry, im so down, im so moody, etc.
i cant stand any single acne or pimple on my face!
yet, there's tons of it now!
* BIG SIGH AGAIN *

oh ya, learned some cool stuff today.
action script is the name, something like programming and maths
i hate maths and this is almost the same like maths we learned before.
this is so-not-fun, yet damn cool.

okay, i don't understand the scripts.
im trying hard to love it, because of the final project.
flash project with action scripts! WTF
i need to understand all those bloody scripts like reading alien coding.

B.T.W
feels like close my blog because it is too boring!
everybody being so tired. wanna go makan not?
Jagung's blog cant make me laugh anymore :(
i hate TOA like so much so much now lor!

done crapping, back to Maroon 5 ♥